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[22 Jul 2004|07:02pm] |
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i got new gj user and lj user and if u wanted to be added then post here and ill add u right away.
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[30 May 2004|01:04pm] |
you know, i learned something. "ages come with experiences."
when you get older, you bring the experiences with you because young ages have to come through with experiences. once you are old enough, you know what is out there. what's there is purpose for you to experience it.
mm-hmm. so concept here, i'm here.. come with experiences through my situation is happening right now.
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[07 May 2004|07:17pm] |
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you know what's werid?
everyone said i'm daddy's girl. i've been very close to my dad, talk about anything in general and he's always on my side, support me, and all. right now, i've been feeling in few weeks and thinking that i shouldn't be step in next level of good relationship of father and daughter. because when he raised me as his only daughter and been telling me about sex life, marriage, men, etc.. the more he keep telling me about this and i started thinking, why would he never stop talking about it? and the more he get overprotected me and the more i disliked someway about him. maybe i should not get along with him that well.. just talk with him once a while.. keep myself busy around other people, especially my mom, my cousins, my brothers, and anthony. i just don't know yet. i don't make my decision yet. what i've been noticing myself that i don't talk with my dad that much like we always used to sit and talk and listen and now we didn't.. we starting.. less and less.. and bring up more of our attitude and lead to agrue.
why am i noticing this.. because.. i had my dream thoughts about a guy that i want to fall in love with and top of everything that i want to. love, respect, and needs. then till, i fall in love with anthony and meant so much to me. i invited him to meet my family during spring break and my dad was acting differently. i thought, that's dad.. he get werid if i have a boyfriend..you know how dads is. but the first time, i bring him in every moments with me to my family and my other side of good friends of family, such as godmother and godfather and their families.. my dad get uncomfortable. i was thinking, i remember my dad tell me few times that he want me to find right boyfriend and bring to my parents and focus my school and have him to support me, love me and help my family. now i was like, come on, dad.. don't be such a jerk. but i didn't say that to him. it just saying in my mind when i see him act like that around my man.
sometimes, i used to think i wish i have a big sister. sometimes, i don't. i'm 16 and that's where i'm living my life in school, future-to-be, friends and family. *shrug* it doesn't mean that i'm living independent. i'm under my parents' roof but if they understand me and they should be open-minded and giving some comfortable for me. yes, i'm lucky to have parents like them. but, it doesn't according this about my mom. my mom always let the decision made by my dad's decide. it's like...this whole family situation happening to me is all about my dad. most of the time, i don't get it. i don't understand him. sometimes, i get ignored by my mom and it annoyed me. sometimes i ignored my parents and they get wrong idea and starting worry abt me. well, i guess that's all i can say about this issue.
mm, i always want to eat but i just don't get to eat. my stomach kept growling and beg for some food. but i rejected. every morning, i don't eat breakfast and now, i can't eat lunch becuz i don't pay for lunch. dammit. i refused to pay for lunch. i just cover and take some food or my friend just bring it to me. *shrug* sucks.
well, i guess that's long entry and i'd get done by now.
later.
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[01 May 2004|03:27pm] |
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i feel like it's 5pm or so. it's only 3:27pm. well, i was at carmen's house(my godmother) for a birthday party. i felt so silent. but i seen those people having a good time. and i thought about the mall to see some dress for prom and i told my mom that she kept her word that she will take me and my cousin to mall and looking around. my mom was ignored me and i was like, mom! look at me, will we go to mall today? she was laughing.. becuz other people seen me talking to her.. she was like, maybe. i thought myself, what a bitch. i wasn't in mood in that time.. i told her, you kept ur word and when!? she ain't say nothing. she just talking to someone else instead of listening to me. she always postpone her word. whatsoever. i decided to leave the party and drive myself home. and here i am.. updating. afterward, going to hang out with billy, going around baby stores. then i'll see edith tonight.
you know, i'm thinking about anthony.. i miss him. he's at magic mountain with his brother and some friends. i have lot to say about anthony. many things that i've never thought. i went through with my exes.. they aren't wonderful like him. yes, memories of my exes may be good but as in relationship.. i've never been in love before, never been in serious relationship, never have felt so comfortable and a guy who understand me... until him. he's like... everything to me that i need. when he came to see me during spring break, on that 3rd day of special moment, i fall in love with him. i gave him my first love. i kept telling him that he's my first.
in past few weeks before spring break, i made this ugly mistake and i realized that i'm lucky to have 2nd chance.
i love him more than he love me
i know him more than he know me.. till during spring break, he know me better, he still love me, and he forgave me. everything i had with him through all these moments is the best feeling i ever had with him. especially on our special day.
...here the picture of us at seattle by space needle. it's my favorite pic.
( click here to see my ♥ pic )
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[24 Apr 2004|09:55pm] |
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there's few pictures of me and anthony.
( read more n pictures.. )
i gotta lot things to say about us but i don't have time right now. i'll update more picutures and entries.
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[22 Mar 2004|12:56pm] |
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i made the biggest mistake and i've learned a lesson. i've decided to deleted all the entries and i regain my feelings to stay stronger... when people around me. this time, i'm not gonna get any miscible feelings in me or hurting me.
and this.. is for anthony. ♥ ♥ I LOVE YOU ♥ ♥
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